Day Dream

Once upon a moment,

A mid-day morn in time,

I'm still missing you,

Its all I ever can do,

Would you ever,

Be mine..

Now,

Half awake, a dream,

Such beautiful visions you make,

I'll savor,

From my imaginary plate,

Of you,

Your scent, flavor, taste..

Bittersweet,

you're not ever there,

Left alone in slumber,

In the end, back to the start,

an open door..

Hope,

To dream again,

of you once more,

Gladly.. I'll do,

Love You..

Endless

You think I would be envious,

You said you've got back with the other,

It doesn't mean that because I don't show it,

That I've lost all hope of us being together,

Then again,

You've lied to me, hide away from me,

Its okay, its alright I'll say,

I'd already thought it couldn't possibly be.

I said I love you. Its never ever a lie,

If you think it ever was though, I would rather just .. die,

Sure, its hard to believe, such a love so strong,

Could eventually, eventfully, possibly go wrong,

You're just everything fantastic,

And everything so right,

The start of heavenly mornings,

Until the silent end of night.

Pardon if you may, my blandness,

I guess its just senseless,

In dismay,

pretentious as I may not want to be,

I really do hope that you would clearly see,

My love for you is in every way,

Endless.

Have you ever felt like..

When you've stayed home for far too long you've lost all sense of the world around you. One day you finally decide to get out of your house to hang out at some places or meet your friends, who you've been hiding away from since you'd started with what ever activity thats been keeping you at home which in my case being able to try out The Sims 3 and of course, assignments stacked up together.. One pile, two pile, three pile.. etc.

You suddenly get this weird Fascination for every one other object you look at, come across or upon, every one person you meet, every place you go, every word heard and spoken, really like ... EVERYTHING !

How people laugh, how they'd gossip with one another animatedly at a café table, when two long forgotten friends meet each other after a long period of time, the way they speak, the languages they converse in, to the different postures of how they stand while they seem to be self-consciously looking around, observing their surroundings, trying to catch other people who happen to be looking at them?

And then it gets more detailed than just that, the tone and volume of their voices, the sweetness of a ladies speech, the hardness of a man's anger, the expressions they show when they try their hardest to communicated their thoughts, it all sounds like music to me, just at those moments.

Really, even an argument between a husband and wife sometimes just seems so amusing, or a dispute between a sales manager trying to calm down a customer, or well.. you get the picture I hope. Yes to me, it is very much similar to watching TV. Y'know, all those dramas you watch every other evening *Chinese serials for my case* and even now, these days you'll get to watch most of it on the Internet *Yea I do watch every now and then when someone else is watching* .

Where on earth am I going with this? I have no idea, I can't put a finger on it, I really can't describe it either very well for now. All I can say about this strange feeling right now is..

Its a wonderful world out there,
from the good to the bad of it all,
you'll really learn how to appreciate everything,
IF only you stood back, and watched in awe..

This is one way.

I can put music on my blog! I won't say much just listen. tell me what you think. =)

Regain . Recall . Return

I just got one of my many very very missed Dreams this morning! =D
Its been so long since I've got any of these stuff whatever you want to call it;
Active-brain-during-sleep thoughts and its me thinking too much even when I'm asleep, maybe even possibly Psychic Visions or Premonitions of the past or of the many possible futures to come, then again it may just be my over-imaginative mind creating its own work of art during its long awaited free time in the night. I wonder where does it get all its material..

Maybe there's some relation to this with my past few months of hectic unscheduled err.. schedule. Minding with work day and night, worrying about something, everything or nothing at all, wondering too much more than needed about other things, and the things of other things, AND the other things of other things! and the.. you get the picture..
My head has been filled with all other kinds of cluttered thoughts and memories (I don't mean insignificant information or anything like that. Its all still important just Rojak-ed mixed up like tasty sauce and a whole lot of veggies and the occasional pieces of Sotong)

Another possible contributor might have been one other reason, my sudden inspiration to make music once more after a certain period of disinterest (again I owe this to the workload). Now this I will not include all the music mixing and editing for Cheer09 that shall be considered as the tiresome work I mentioned earlier.

This sudden flood of creativeness with music, I owe it either to the much needed release of thoughts and err stress? Or maybe its just my irritating fringe at the front that I should probably do something about today. Randomly blamed. =P
Okay really now.. I tend to pick up my guitar and start playing away anything that reaches to my fingers from my mind.

One random thought ----> Music Instruments are Mediums for Emotional Expression

Came up with something since some few days ago. Started me off with a little bit of Acoustic Recording at home even. IF I complete a whole piece of OK-lah music I'll try put it up somewhere on my blog maybe. Actually I have a lot of other stuff before. But it all got deleted because of a much needed formatting of the PC and regretfully none of the old compositions were saved. So oh well spring-cleaned and start fresh!

ANYHOW!

Point is.. i woke up early today from a weird dream, remembered I didn't eat dinner because I slept early, feared for a case of gastritis, rushed down to kitchen, found Oreos and ate a whole lot of it, feel better now. Phew!

Oreos saved my life. Hahaha!